Wednesday 25 July 2012

Again

I miss my family so much. 

Crying.

Screaming in my heart.

Praying.

Wishing I am home now.

# I miss my little inspiration, so much T____T #

Sad Part

Move on.

Such an easy words to say. As if you can say it straight to my face and then in the blink of eyes, I manage to move on.

No. It is not as easy as that. And that's the saddest part in this 'i want to get over him' struggles.

Ya. Saya sangat pandai menasihati rakan-rakan saya untuk menghadapi masalah-masalah mereka dengan segala macam kata-kata motivasi. But then, when I'm facing something myself, I don't know how to react. 

Yes. I did try to move on as fast as I can, but I failed to do so. I can't forget every little details of moments that I SHOULD had forgot today. 

And hell yeah. It's hurts so much to bear all this to myself. 

But I can act like nothing had happened between you and me, or him and her, or her and him, or between us that ever hurt me. And I'm glad you don't know anything about this.

This 2nd semester seems to be great. It's really great. My class mates were great, understanding than ever, lovelier, funnier, crazier and we get along very well. But I still feel this hole deep inside me. Maybe that hole is the place that I used to save for you. HAHA. Pathetic.

# time will heal all the broken soul #

Monday 23 July 2012

Kuliah Di Bulan Puasa :D

*sigh*

Sepatutnya hari ini membentangkan hasil tugasan Literasi Bahasa, tetapi malangnya hasil kami entah di mana. Ni la susahnya kalau kerja tu bercerai-berai dan dipegang oleh orang-orang yang berlainan. hmmm.

Pembelajaran ketika bulan puasa. Fuhh ! Mencabar tak mencabar ? haha. Biasanya kalau mengantuk dalam kelas, terus minum air ke, makan Choki-choki ke. Tapi dalam berpuasa ni, tak boleh makan apa, tak boleh minum apa, just.. BUAT BISING ! YEAH ! haha. Mengacau orang-orang yang sedang membentang ! hehe

Pensyarah kami, Dr. Sabri bin Che Man, ataupun mesra dengan ABAH :) mengajarkan kaedah pengajaran membaca dengan beberapa teknik baharu, yakni PANDANG dan SEBUT. Caranya ? Cikgu akan sediakan Kad Imbasan yang mempunyai gambar-gambar berkenaan dengan perkataan yang ingin diajarkan pada hari tersebut, iaitu gambar, huruf-huruf yang membentuk perkataan yang ingin diajarkan serta suku kata yang berkaitan.. Sebagai contoh, hari ini, kumpulan Charlie dari PISMP 2C mengajarkan tentang RUSA. Maka mereka menyediakan gambar seekor rusa untuk ditunjukkan kepada murid :) Dengan cara tu, murid-murid akan lebih tertarik untuk belajar. Lepas tu, cikgu mengajarkan cara membaca dengan menggunakan lagu, ataupun menyanyikan ayat tersebut.

Best tak best kuliah saya ? hehe. Hari ni tak mengantuk sangat. Berkat puasa kot :P

Tahniah kepada semua yang membentang hari ni. Saya pun nak juga ! Khamis ! Pasti saya akan cari bahan-bahan tu dan bawa sendiri ke kuliah. Lagi senang. Kan ? :)

Dua hari dah berpuasa penuh, jadi saya yakin saya akan dapat berpuasa penuh selama sebulan ini dengan jayanya. Kecuali hari-hari tertentu la.. haha

Okey bye !

Saturday 21 July 2012

Rindu

Rindunya nak balik rumah.

Kalau dapat, nak balik hari ni juga.

Nak jumpa mama, bapa, Icha, dan yang lain-lain.

Rindu dengan udara pagi di Kampung Moyog.

Rindu dengan aroma kopi setiap pagi di rumah tua kami.

Rindu dengan bebelan mama, omelan papa, celoteh Icha, huru hara Putik, Miming, Giuk..

Rindu dengan karenah si kucing dan anjing yang memeriahkan suasana di rumah.

Rindu dengan rutin menonton televisyen sehingga lewat malam di rumah.

Rindunya !

Puasa si Floe : Cerita 1

Selamat berpuasa ! :D

Maka hari ini, 21 Julai 2012, bermulalah sesi berpuasa bagi umat Islam selama sebulan. Walaupun saya bukan Muslim, tetapi saya pun ikut puasa juga :) Last year, saya dapat mengikuti puasa sehingga hari terakhir, siap dengan sesi mengganti puasa lagi ! haha

So, hari ini, I mean, pagi ini, saya tak tidur langsung. Sebabnya ? Sebab petang semalam saya dah tidur sepuas-puasnya. Tak sengaja tertidur masa petang, selama berjam-jam. Terbangun saja, terus bersiap untuk berpindah bilik. menemani Tracey yang keseorangan kerana Memiey, rumate dia balik p Sarawak. Puasa pertama untuk Ramadhan ini, sudah semestinya setiap insan mengimpikan untuk meraikannya dengan insan tersayang. Semoga selamat kembali ke pangkuan keluarga dan juga kembali semula ke IPG KBM, sahabat ! :D

*Sigh*
Hari pertama puasa. Bersahur ala kadar sahaja kerana tidak tahu apa yang perlu dimakan. Kalau Cik Lyeen ada mesti dah macam-macam ada makanan tadi :D 
err. Disebabkan sahur tadi hanya ala kadar, maka.. sekarang saya lapar sudah ! Macam mana ney ? HAHA

Okey Floe.. Tahan.. Tahan.. Tahan.. alaaaaaa.. 12 jam saja pun :P
12 JAM SAHAJA ! hehe.
Well.. First day will always be the tough day ever when we're facing something new.
And it is first day of fasting month. So, it's going to be tough.
And I know I can do this ! HAHA

Today's plan ?
1. tengok movie
2. update blog
3. karaoke sendirian berhad
4. update bilik :D
5. update assignment
6. err. tidur ? :D :D
7. BAZAR RAMADHAN ! hehe

Today's quotes : If you want it, go for it. Challenge yourself. You never know what you're capable of if you never go across your comfort zone ! God bless !

Thursday 12 July 2012

Empty

Rasa kosong sangat. Tak ada apa-apa yang membuatkan saya teruja di sini. Well, my friends did. They did excite me but.. somehow there's something stayed empty in me :D It's strange. This feeling is strange. And the emptiness makes me a stranger to my friends too.

Many things distract me from my tutorials. I miss the Askar Wataniah's routines, my Askar Wataniah's buddies, I'd nearly gone crazy missing my family, and I did a crazy things to get away from this craziness. Weird huh ? I can't understand myself very well too. at this moment. In this situation. I get moody easily, I can be very sensitive, and in a moment, I can be very happy, and I can be very blur.

What is this actually ? What's happening ? It's like I don't know myself. I do things that I know I will regret later, yet I did it. I say bad words a lot. I hurt other's feeling often. I became too selfish and egois. This isn't me. But I don't know what to do. I laugh a lot just to get away from this strange feeling. I talk a lot just to ignore this feeling. 

The feeling of breaking down. And I don't know why ! It's strange. Unknown.

The days passes, just passes. And until today, I'm looking into myself. What did I do wrong until there's a feeling of something wrong happening within me now ?

I want to talk about this to somebody, but wouldn't it annoys them to hear all this crap ?

Empty. Empty..

# emptiness